Tuesday, 5 May 2015

A letter to my Child

Dear Child,

You are welcome to this world.. This world, is very beautiful, precious and lovely place.  And you have been sent here, to make it even more beautiful.. even more lovely  place than what it already is..

Who has sent?

That nobody knows till date... and maybe knowing that is not going to make any difference... Therefore, do not waste your time on such questions...

We all have limited time with us.. How much ever it be, it is less... There is so much in the world..to see..  to understand.. to feel.. that u don't even have a moment to waste...

Possibilities are limitless...You can be anything..  can do anything.. can change this world..

Do something new everyday, learn something new everyday.. And if you have doubt in your mind regarding anything.. Then remember, its always better to regret on something you did than regretting on something you never did...

Because.. by doing something, even if u gain nothing else at all, u will gain experience.. And experience, is very valuable...
You should experience everything, but do not get addicted to anything.. Experience teaches you to differentiate between right and wrong.. It saves you from doing mistakes... But do not be afraid of mistakes. Mistakes happen from those, who dares to do something..
Own up to your mistakes, forgive others mistakes and give them a chance to reform them self.

Nobody, does mistake on purpose..Nobody intentionally behaves badly..
Nobody knows what is going on in other person's life.
Hence give everyone the same chance that you would give yourself..
Be kind to all as much as you would have been to yourself..
Respect All, Trust everyone, and love everyone. This world has deficit of love, my dear child. And everyone needs it badly. You will also need it. Do not hesitate to ask, nor be apprehensive of showing it off..

Life is very short..for embarrassment, hesitation.. Even if you know or you dont, Dance freely... Sing Loudly.. eat as much as you please.. Laugh out...and cry hard...

Grow up only by body... not by mind.. Because the day you loose the child within you, the innocence within you... that day believe me, you loose the life within you..

Think about your future, but do not worry about it.. Remember your past, but do not dwell in it.

There will be good as well as bad days in life. Do not be too proud of your good days, and do not feel devastated during the bad days.

Do not give all the credits of success to yourself and do not blame others for your unfortunate failures..

Dear child, just keep moving on...spreading happiness.. and always keep in mind, you have been sent here with one sole purpose.. that you may make this world, even more beautiful .. even more better than what it already is..

With lots of love..

Monday, 14 April 2014

Destiny is never a bitch !!!

"My marriage is fixed!!! There is nothing we can do about it now... You know that I love you more than I love myself.. If there was a way, I would have made us happen... but now... I cannot kill my parents for my selfishness, for my happiness.. I know, you too wouldnt want to hurt our parents... you are a good girl.. the best one I have known.. And Sacrifice is what true love stands for.."
I listened to everything without uttering a word... tears dripping my eyes blurred my vision, yet I was staring at the reality with shock and dismay.... I knew I was helpless, and to best of my knowledge he too was....
In a country like India with the most cultural, regional, socio-political, linguistic diversity it was difficult to work out a love to consummate into a marriage... We have a right to get married to the person if our choice.... but we are bound by close knitted family upbringing.... our families teach us since the time we are kids, how great our community and culture is, and how mighty it is compared to all others... I knew all this and to not complicate my life I made a resolution : I will not fall in love with anybody out of my community which is quite impossible living in Mumbai where u live harmoniously mixed up with all other ethnic groups... well... soo then I will not fall in any serious relationship...!!!!  I do not want to be hurt or to b bound by emotions.. so I roamed around chirping, fluttering like a free bird.. There were lot of crushes, hot guys, mr.rights.. I kept ignoring all distractions and I was happy in life.. until I met him...!!!
Him!! The protagonist of my story is a Nepali inhabitant whose family came and settled frm Nepal years ago... I met him first in my office... He was a round, short n stout..wheatish guy.. His eyes never gave away that he is a Nepali... His nose was prominently wide n raised up as well unlike others of his race.. He had a pretty face, although fat... well nt at all my type of tall, dark n handsome guy...But somhow we grew closer with time and friendship flourished... I was a good friend to him but he was in love, I wasnt.. it took alot of convincing crying and all to make me say "Yes"... I wasnt in love though, as I had the marriage troubles i would have to face running in the back of my mind.... but gradually, I started falling in Love... he was very possesive abt me.. the way I dress, the way I look.. the way I talk.. the way I address people.. the guys I talk to... he had issues with everything but those seemed cute to me.. because it was new to me... He would want to meet me every day, every weekend.. talk to me whole night and day... it was all cute and new... I loved it...those cute moments... those cute fights... I had started feeling I was the luckiest person to have him in my life... So understanding, caring, giving, loving possessive.... but there was one thing I hated, he never visibly stood by me whenever I had issues with anybody..... never... he would personally tell me I am right but, publically he just wouldn't.... however I accepted it as his diplomacy... I never really thought it in this way that someone who cant stand up for what is right, how will he fight for his love??
We both were initially confused, but we gradually was spell bound of each other and I always felt he loved me more than what I do... Fun filled an year and half went by.. things changed when his family started looking for suitable bride for him... at first we were confused on how to deal with... both of our families were as strict as it could be... but Love does show you a way to work it out.   I was 22 and my family wasnt very keen to get me married so early...  Me and my supposed better-half decided that for the time being he will refuse all proposals that come by and will present to them about us, when the time is right...
Well everything was going as planned... until that one proposal that came by... And I dunno what changed the whole situation... he was suddenly finding it difficult to say no to the proposal... The girl was a very pretty Nepali chick from a rich nepali family and his family was positive and rejoicing about the alliance...
"This is it! We will have to tell our families about us.. I am going to talk to my family that I cannot marry any other girl but you!!" He stated sternely... I was perplexed.. but hugely relieved... I too thought, this is somthing I will have to face... if not now then its going to be never!!! While he kept the call to talk to his family, I eagerly waited fingers crossed for him to call back with a positive answer... BUT!! His call shattered me.... his words kept on ringing my ears... I cried, tried to convince him... but all in vain.. he was helpless too...
I some how tried to understand... accept the destiny but still there was a feeling of contention that we are seperating because of family and not because of lack of love.. With lot of love and respect I thought 'poor him, he has to marry someone when I am still occupied in his heart.. I have time to atleast nurture the wound...but him! He cant even show pain... Salute to him!! '
However, the bubble I was living in soon burst out... Truth unvieled itself and the ugly face of truth was scary enough to shake me up inside out!
It soo happened that he was bowled over by the girl.. Pretty, rich and same caste - undoubtfully a better
bet than me.... he acted smart... as the saying goes "saap b mare aur laati b na toote" . so, inorder to get rid of me, he thought of lying to me that he told his family about us... there wer so much issues... my sister beat me up.. my dad got asthama attack..!! heck!! So much of lies..
Some body has correctly said it, one single lie leads you to 1000 subsequent lies to keep the initial one undisclosed!!

Wednesday, 8 June 2011


When i saw him for the very first time, i felt blood rushing inside my veins.."a strange feeling" which was first of its kind! I had never experienced anything like this ever before!
I kept gazing him, while he playfully looked around and smiled!
Uff! i can still feel the sensation that perplexed me,when i touched him first! I just couldn't keep my hands off him!
Then when i kissed him..Jesus! it was the most beautiful thing ever!
I dont know if this is what you call as falling in love but yeh,his is the most purest feeling i had ever and undoubtedly the most beautiful one so far..
Maybe thats why, When i sat down to pen-down few words on this 'Angel', It turned down into a poem...
Here it goes!

Looking at his Angelic smile,
 I was wondering for a while,
What on earth made it so divine, 
Being with him sends me on cloud nine!

The little teeth that were sprouting out,
Fumbling whatever was just taught,
Oh my Lord, he keeps me cheered,
He loves it when he is loved and cared.

The innocence and peace in his eyes,
Can help a dying  man to retrieve to life,
God's Angel That the children are,
My nephew is the best one so far..!

Well maybe, i am not that good a poet, But at-least my love made me put some rhymes together..

Monday, 23 May 2011

Men never grow up...!!!

I have always heard the phrase " Some Men are dogs",but i don't agree with it, and i have few reasons for disagreeing..First of all, Dogs have keen observations,they don't pretend to be smart but they act smartly..But Men--They pretend to be smart, they think no one knows what they have in mind,but everyone knows what they are upto....Am talking about young men,the hot-blooded,fun-loving gen-next people..
I don't know what their problem is? Maybe, they cant settle their mind on one thing,or they never grow up mentally.They keep chasing butterflies like kids do...but hardly catch any..Lol

23/05/2011  10:35.A.M
I am on my way to passport office, along with my mom.I took her along so that i would get a company and besides she was free as well. We boarded local to thane and was waiting for bus. Gosh it was a long queue (one longer than you see before beverages corporation in Kerala)  but we dint wait in the queue and got in to the much crowded bus.(we managed sum-how) We pushed and pulled to move forward and managed to get ahead. There appears my protagonist, in semi-formals and a glares  .He caught my attention when he called up my mom to offer a seat and modestly stood(beside me). I did not feel thankful to his act,instead i muttered in my mind "fool, he thinks i dint catch him". There were several other ladies standing but, he particularly called up my mom to offer a seat. He stood beside me,grinning to himself. In between giving me  side-glances which i would purposefully acknowledge. He seemed to be a smart guy, educated and working, at least thats what his looks exhibited.I decided to trammel the peace he had in his mind (just for fun). Again, after some stops someone got up and he called out  me to be seated, i sat down courteously. He gave me a satisfied look, and got down at the next signal where a friend of his ( i suppose so) was waiting for him, with his bike.He got onto the bike and continued his journey, but thats when he caught me starring him continuously. He glanced four- five times "no, he hadn't mistaken, I was starring him without a blink." Buss! Thats it , the kid in him woke -up to chase the butterfly...

12:30 P.M
After long and tiring wait, i got out of the passport office, only to find him waiting there outside on his bike..Uff !!! what a patience hehe...Lol 
The instance he saw me, he got the grab of his glares which he had hung on his shirt pocket and wore it ,took out a handkerchief and wiped his face, enthusiastically, his friend by this time, was fuming with anger but like a true friend, controlled it all and took part in his friend's mirth.
I gave a slight smile and a naughty glance, (hehe, How evil i am!! I am playing with a feeling of a kid) that was all needed to boost him up and increase his restlessness to greater heights..
He was acting as if snared.He kept trying to communicate with me in sign language atleast get a response..I intentionally ignored them and kept talking to my mom...Poor Lad..hehe
Then Me and mom got in to a rick and i knew he would chase, he did!
As we reached station, i saw his eyes searching for me desperately.I walked towards the platform without getting caught  by him.But i could see him running, here and there...(lol, these men have all the time in the world for all such activities)  I boarded the train as it arrived, and he still couldnt see me, as the train moved i captured his attention as i stood by the entrance of train and he looked at me rather helplessly and painfully when i gave him a wicked smile..!!!
haha Mission Accomplished !

Sunday, 1 May 2011

What is the meaning of Love?

This question haunts me. I know it is a feeling, but what feeling it is cannot be described! I never got a proper definition for it. In a search for the apt words to put together so as to define the magical word "Love"..
Love, i have heard it from my childhood. Ever since i started understanding language, i have been hearing this word...."Love" 
What does it actually mean? 
My mom says 'I love you' to me. So did my dad and, i used to smile and plant a kiss on their cheeks everytime they said so to me. But still, in my 3rd standard when a small guy from my class wrote "I love you" in a chit and passed it to me, i felt sad and i cried.  Even 12 years later i am not able to conclude what made me cry at that time...??
Well, years later in my teenage when a guy came up-to me to declare his ever-lasting love towards me, i couldn't stop laughing ! This time i knew the reason that made me laugh..I felt the guy was nothing less than a moron, to think that am foolish enough to believe that he is madly in love with a girl he met few moments ago, and cant live without..!! gross..!!
it does seem cute in Allu Arjun movies though....

I eventually understood, there are very few who really love, rest just claim to be loving.May it be mother, father, children, lover, husband, wife, siblings who ever it maybe, only very few has real love and compassion alive in them...
Love- It has to be selfless and unconditional.
People say i love you not because they love the person, but because they love themselves more when they are with that person...
Most of relations today are built on selfishness and insecurities.Parents want support for their old-age, children need shelter till the are capable enough to take care of self....and so it goes on...These are small small selfishness which are mostly harmless for each other. Lovers on other hand need partner to fulfill their emotional, physical and psychological needs and cravings. When someone say i cant live without you , its mostly because the contribution you make in to fulfilling their needs..it shows how important your contributions are!!!
Well, more i think about it, more confused i get. Describing what actually we mean by love is like walking through the ocean...!!

Still, if this selfish love is harmless enough for others and it is doing good for them, then let the world claim to be in love with the humanity and feel happy about it...!! ;) ;)

Thursday, 28 April 2011

Good vs Bad

Wonder what takes it to be a good person.....??
is it the behavioral traits....the academic success...the humility and modesty....the depth of knowledge in the person....successful career...wise investments??? wonder what is it....!!!
well if any one could point out that..."these are the best qualities in a man"....and everyone in this world could agree to it,without a fraction of disagreement...
well well...that is not impossible but out of the world....there will be at least one person who may not agree completely with the prescribed so called good qualities....
what may-be good to one person's eyes may-not be that pleasing enough for the other....People differ, cultures differ, beliefs differ, opinions differs......
Its all about what a person perceives....
Morality differs from person to person and culture to culture....Bribing is considered as crime in India but, certain countries view bribing as a extra motivation to get the work done faster......We worship snakes as Gods, but some culture believe those reptiles are Evils....
Its just a matter of perception that differentiates good and Bad...
But there is one commonness about good people that is acceptable worldwide, those are the people who selflessly devote their time and money into helping others, work towards the enrichment of the society and contribute to the world.....The world views those as bad, who fight and kill, terrorize and torture the innocent people; for their personal interests and greed for power, politics and money...
But it is very few that the world could do to eliminate the bad people because,compared to the good-ones the bad people are in much larger proportion.....thus the former remains helpless before the latter....
But there would be a dawn, when the fight of good vs bad will end into the victory of former...
Keeping faith to see that dawn, in-spite of all the negativity and bloodsheds around........