Monday, 23 May 2011

Men never grow up...!!!

I have always heard the phrase " Some Men are dogs",but i don't agree with it, and i have few reasons for disagreeing..First of all, Dogs have keen observations,they don't pretend to be smart but they act smartly..But Men--They pretend to be smart, they think no one knows what they have in mind,but everyone knows what they are upto....Am talking about young men,the hot-blooded,fun-loving gen-next people..
I don't know what their problem is? Maybe, they cant settle their mind on one thing,or they never grow up mentally.They keep chasing butterflies like kids do...but hardly catch any..Lol

23/05/2011  10:35.A.M
I am on my way to passport office, along with my mom.I took her along so that i would get a company and besides she was free as well. We boarded local to thane and was waiting for bus. Gosh it was a long queue (one longer than you see before beverages corporation in Kerala)  but we dint wait in the queue and got in to the much crowded bus.(we managed sum-how) We pushed and pulled to move forward and managed to get ahead. There appears my protagonist, in semi-formals and a glares  .He caught my attention when he called up my mom to offer a seat and modestly stood(beside me). I did not feel thankful to his act,instead i muttered in my mind "fool, he thinks i dint catch him". There were several other ladies standing but, he particularly called up my mom to offer a seat. He stood beside me,grinning to himself. In between giving me  side-glances which i would purposefully acknowledge. He seemed to be a smart guy, educated and working, at least thats what his looks exhibited.I decided to trammel the peace he had in his mind (just for fun). Again, after some stops someone got up and he called out  me to be seated, i sat down courteously. He gave me a satisfied look, and got down at the next signal where a friend of his ( i suppose so) was waiting for him, with his bike.He got onto the bike and continued his journey, but thats when he caught me starring him continuously. He glanced four- five times "no, he hadn't mistaken, I was starring him without a blink." Buss! Thats it , the kid in him woke -up to chase the butterfly...

12:30 P.M
After long and tiring wait, i got out of the passport office, only to find him waiting there outside on his bike..Uff !!! what a patience hehe...Lol 
The instance he saw me, he got the grab of his glares which he had hung on his shirt pocket and wore it ,took out a handkerchief and wiped his face, enthusiastically, his friend by this time, was fuming with anger but like a true friend, controlled it all and took part in his friend's mirth.
I gave a slight smile and a naughty glance, (hehe, How evil i am!! I am playing with a feeling of a kid) that was all needed to boost him up and increase his restlessness to greater heights..
He was acting as if snared.He kept trying to communicate with me in sign language atleast get a response..I intentionally ignored them and kept talking to my mom...Poor Lad..hehe
Then Me and mom got in to a rick and i knew he would chase, he did!
As we reached station, i saw his eyes searching for me desperately.I walked towards the platform without getting caught  by him.But i could see him running, here and there...(lol, these men have all the time in the world for all such activities)  I boarded the train as it arrived, and he still couldnt see me, as the train moved i captured his attention as i stood by the entrance of train and he looked at me rather helplessly and painfully when i gave him a wicked smile..!!!
haha Mission Accomplished !

Sunday, 1 May 2011

What is the meaning of Love?

This question haunts me. I know it is a feeling, but what feeling it is cannot be described! I never got a proper definition for it. In a search for the apt words to put together so as to define the magical word "Love"..
Love, i have heard it from my childhood. Ever since i started understanding language, i have been hearing this word...."Love" 
What does it actually mean? 
My mom says 'I love you' to me. So did my dad and, i used to smile and plant a kiss on their cheeks everytime they said so to me. But still, in my 3rd standard when a small guy from my class wrote "I love you" in a chit and passed it to me, i felt sad and i cried.  Even 12 years later i am not able to conclude what made me cry at that time...??
Well, years later in my teenage when a guy came up-to me to declare his ever-lasting love towards me, i couldn't stop laughing ! This time i knew the reason that made me laugh..I felt the guy was nothing less than a moron, to think that am foolish enough to believe that he is madly in love with a girl he met few moments ago, and cant live without..!! gross..!!
it does seem cute in Allu Arjun movies though....

I eventually understood, there are very few who really love, rest just claim to be loving.May it be mother, father, children, lover, husband, wife, siblings who ever it maybe, only very few has real love and compassion alive in them...
Love- It has to be selfless and unconditional.
People say i love you not because they love the person, but because they love themselves more when they are with that person...
Most of relations today are built on selfishness and insecurities.Parents want support for their old-age, children need shelter till the are capable enough to take care of self....and so it goes on...These are small small selfishness which are mostly harmless for each other. Lovers on other hand need partner to fulfill their emotional, physical and psychological needs and cravings. When someone say i cant live without you , its mostly because the contribution you make in to fulfilling their shows how important your contributions are!!!
Well, more i think about it, more confused i get. Describing what actually we mean by love is like walking through the ocean...!!

Still, if this selfish love is harmless enough for others and it is doing good for them, then let the world claim to be in love with the humanity and feel happy about it...!! ;) ;)